Has She Lost Her Mind?

Has She Lost Her Mind??? That is probably the question you are asking yourself - especially if you know me. :) Sad to say; yes I have lost my mind. For the last 7 years I have struggled with my weight and am finally insane enough from the weight gain that I have resulted to this. I figure that if I blog my attempt to lose weight, it will hold me accountable. One of 2 things will happen, either it will help me lose the weight, or you can chalk this up to another failure and you will be able to talk about my horrific experience behind my back. :) Either way, I figured I would give it a try.


I am not really sure how I want to begin this. Not even 100% sure if I want to do this, but here it goes.


I guess the first thing I need to do is tell a little bit about myself. I am 36 years old, married for 17 years, have 3 children, a dog, and a lot of weight to lose. I live in Georgia and am a teacher. I love my job, especially the days we get to have "treats" for holidays or special events. Sound familiar? I have been pretty small all of my life until I got married. Then like most people, I gained weight...slowly...but I gained. After being married for 4 years, I was pregnant with my first child. I weighed 198lbs. the day he was born. I am 5'2". I lost the weight when I entered college. After my first year of teaching, with my first son , now 7, my husband and I decided to have another child. By the end of this pregnancy, I weighed an astounding 252lbs. I weighed 147 the day I found out I was pregnant. For the last 6 years, and another child, I find myself at 244lbs (not pregnant).


Oh the countless diets I have tried. Countless is the best way to describe it. Last year at the beginning of the school year I started at my local Weight Watchers and decided to give it a try - why not? nothing else was working. Within 8 weeks, I had lost 42lbs. I was really surprised becasue I was eating a lot of food and not deprived..I was even eating out once a week. :) Well, we moved and you know what happens when you pack up the kitchen.. you're right!! FAST FOOD. Within weeks of eating fast food during my move, I gained back most of my weight. It was amazing and scary at how fast the fast food made the weight reappear. So for the last year I have yo-yo dieted. I think I am finally uncomfortable and frustrated enough to do something about it.


I started back to Weight Watchers last Saturday and was ready to go.....then Sunday came and then Monday and then Tuesday, with me promising myself that with each day I would start the next day nice and fresh and ready to count my points. Here it is, Friday night and I have eaten a large pizza with my husband and smelling chocolate chip cookies cooking in the oven while I write this to you. How sad is that? I will go in to Weight Watchers tomorrow with my head held high (because I know I will see a gain on the scale) and begin again.



I will let you know how bad it is. :0