Are You Ready For This ????

For the first time since I was in highschool, I ran. It was as horrific as it was comical. I wore shorts to the gym on Friday - not a good idea...as I worked out on the arc trainer, my shorts kept "riding" up my legs. After about 20 minutes of having to stop to pull my shorts back to where they belong, I decided that I would walk on the treadmill. As I walked on the treadmill, I thought...hmmm....not bad, I wonder if I could run on this thing. Its Friday night and maybe a dozen people in the gym. if I make a complete idiot out of myself many people won't know about it. So, I walked, and walked, and walked..I kept telling myself.."OK, when it gets to 15 minutes - run for a minute. I finally decided to do it. It wasn't bad..it actually felt exhilierating to be running. I guess it is one of those things that you don't miss until you are able to do it again...anyway, everything was going great and then...
do you know how it feels when you are on an elevator and it stops??? and everything on your body kind of goes up and then PLOPS down??? those of you who have weight on you know what I am talking about, Well...I still have some poundage above and on my butt. And I could feel it go up and PLOP down and go up and PLOP down. I could only imagine how I looked from behind. Thought #1: Don't run on the front row...run on the back :)
My husband was actually behind me and said he didn't see it...he might not have seen it but I sure felt it. LOL
Well went I went to weigh in today I was prepared for the worst. Remember how I told you I ate this week, well, I am suppsed to get a visit from good ole mother nature on tuesday - with all of that being said I was very surprised when the lady told me that I had dropped 4.4 lbs. this week. I had to get back on the scale to make sure she was right. I can't make head or tails of what is making me lose and how much - I guess it is good to keep guessing, then you keep doing what you've always done cause you know it is working. I am now down 34.4 lbs. I am down from 249.2 to 215. Exciting...I am 2 lbs ahead of schedule. I still want to make 200 by the end o fthe school year. maybe.....

Reality or Excuses???

So I haven't posted in about 2 weeks. I am now down 29.8 lbs. I guess I should have taken my socks off when I weighed in Saturday and I could have lost the other .2lbs to make 30 lbs. Maybe I will do that this weekend. :)
Reality or Excuses? Why in the world did I choose that heading? I AM HUNGRY..... I haven't been hungry for the last 8 weeks, so why am I all of a sudden starving at ALL hours of the day? Am I really hungry? I think so, usually when my stomach growls that means hunger. I have told myself that I have built up enough muscle, from working out, that it has "kicked" my metabolism up another level and I am burning more calories. That's what I hear happens when you build muscle...or am I losing control and thinking that I am hungry? So, of course, like any obese person, I opt with the muscle theory and ate brownies and Zaxby's Sunday night - not our normal eat out night. Psssttt...I ate Chef Boyardee and brownies on Sat night too. :(
So, I did like my WW leader tells us...GET OVER IT and start back over the next day. I did. I stayed hungry on Monday. then, Tuesday comes around. At the end of the school day I was starving. I ate 2 Fibre One bars. Not bad, right....well as I was cooking supper I "munched" on about half a box of Cheez Nips - love those cheez nips. Oh, and I ate the rest of the frosting that I had bought this weekend for the brownies - I told myself that I needed to get it out of the house so I wouldn't be tempted to eat it - what an excuse.
I have started over AGAIN and have done quite well so far. I took popcorn for my afternoon snack.
My goal, now that I have net my 5%, 10%, and 25 lb loss, is to go 16 weeks without a gain. I am at 9 weeks so far. I so hope that me getting off track does not make me gain weight. Surely one or two slip ups can't be that bad? right?
I read the perfect article in the WW magazine the other day. There was an article on a lady who had lost 206 lbs. She is my height and was about the same weight. She said that her biggest obstacle was realizing that this is a life change and that she would mess up with her eating. She said that she had to learn that it was OK to slip up, but she immediately had to forgive and forget and get back on track the next day. Then she made the comment...like, if you eat a box of doughnuts, forget about it and get back on track the next day... It made me feel "human" to read that someone else had encountered what I am encountering now. Its good to know that I am not some 'freak" because I do splurge on things sometimes. I have to tell myself every day that it is ok and I am a work in progress.

Reflect, Evaluate, Solve

I have been doing a lot of thinking and evaluating this last week. Why is it when I get to this point, I relapse and end up gaining everything back? I think I have finally come to the answer to that question. Why do we ever decide to lose weight? Usually we are uncomfortable...nothing fits...feel tired... should I go on? Well, I have lost enough weight and inches that all of my clothes are hanging on me. I even have a pair of pants that I had to pin the other day. Since all of my clothes are big, I am comfortable in them. Due to being comfortable...I think that it plays a huge mental part in realpsing. I have to constantly remind myself that this is not a diet and it is definitely not temporary. I have to remind myself that this is now my life. Counting, weighing, planning, exercising...all of it is now part of my daily routine. Baseball for my 6 year old begins in a few weeks and I am worried about how it is going to interfere with my gym schedule. I'm sure I will figure something out.
Thanks Lucia for your words of encouragement. You are a wonderful WW leader.

HOORAY HOORAY 1/3 of the way there!!!

Well, I met 2 goals yesterday!
I lost 3 lbs which enabled me to make my 10% goal and I made my 25lb mark. I am so excited! The only drawback I can see about Weight Watchers is that once you hit your 25lb goal, the next reward or recognition that you get is when you lose 50 lbs. I think there ought to be a 30 and a 40lb reward, don't you? Maybe that will help people get past that 25lb point.
I am where I was at 2 years ago when I relapsed and gained all of my weight back. I think about that every day. I know that I have to dig deep inside and pull the fighter out of me. I have got to keep going. My goal right now is to get to 200lbs. by the end of May. I have 23lbs. to go. Some days I feel like I will be able to make it, other days I feel like it is an eternity away.
I know that all I can do is keep it up and trudge forward.

Finally - some results

Since I have posted last, I have lost another 7 lbs. I have now lost 23 lbs. I can't complain...since it has only been 6 weeks. I began working on the Arc Trainer at the gym and love it. I can burn 300 calories in 30 minutes! That probably contributed to my 4 lb weight loss this week. Next week my goal is to hit my 10% goal (24 lbs.) and hit my 25 lb goal. How hard can it be to lose 1 lb? Well, if mother nature has anything to say about it... a lot! I am excited because yesterday I bought a size 3x shirt and it was too big. I was very excited about that. Have a great week and I will let you know if I make my goal or not!