Who knows?????

Yesterday could have been worse. I guess that is all I have to say. I started out wonderfully and then by lunch had every excuse in the world as to why I should eat something I didn't need.

Breakfast: flat bread toast (whole grain), 2 egg whites, roast beef (low-fat) and WW cream cheese. Lunch: Doritos and Spinach dip. Supper: Honey roasted dipped chicken fingers (oven baked) and homemade mac and cheese. Then fat free pudding and cool whip for dessert.

I hope that today will be a better day. My fat pants are tight and uncomfortable. When you get this big NOTHING looks good or even "OK." I love jean day. I can wear my "old lady jeans", you know the ones with the elastic waist...LOL You'll see me in them tomorrow. :)

Please give me strength to make it through the day and into this afternoon and tonight. E-mail, text, call me tonight and make sure that I am not "pigging" out!

I would love more than anything to get back to the gym. One problem! Shame, Humiliation, and Embarassment! What will people think when they see me? What will Joe think? He worked so hard to get me where I was and look at how much I am going to disappoint him. What in the world will he think when he sees me?

Yes, Julie, the first day back will be the hardest. I know I have to suck it up and go. Easier said than done! Maybe I will wait until I lose about 10 or 15 lbs before I go back, that way I won't be so "shocking" when I walk through the door. Who knows...Yes, kara we need to get back. Your wedding is a few weeks away...I know...easier said than done!

I have to go to work and be uncomfortable for the rest of the day...Ugh!!!!!